Part 3 (Three)
His body staggered, as if hiding something, or as if suppressing something, “So, if I see into your eyes and say to you, you will trust me more!”
Chu Zhu Yu stupefied looking at Xiao Zhi, he slowly raise his eyelids up, that kind of black pair eyes bead looked at her. But—- he only gazing into the distance, as if the stagnant lifeless soul, no slightest emotion.
“Toward you, I have felt tired, so then, you really don’t need to look for me.” The voice is so clear, but it similar to the freezing ice.
“So then, tell me that you are not loving me anymore.” Even her body is weak, but at this moment she is so straight forward.
He makes a fist from his hand, looking at her for such long time, gritting his teeth even he biting his mouth.
“You can’t say it out loud, right?” She gave him same eyesight, her eyes expressed she won’t move back.
“I am Xiao Zhi—” he takes a deep breath, he clearly understand this is his last step, he clearly understand he should cut off the ties completely with this woman, a woman that he ever wanted so much in his life, sacrifice anything for her, he clearly understand his strength and capability to suppress and control the poison only in a month, after a month, his seven apertures will be bleeding until he death. So that, he should cut off this relationship, perhaps on this way, later on in the future she might live better off. But… on her eyesight, he realized, to say “I don’t love you” is really hard.
Her lips tightly shut her mouth, the stubborn and sad expression.
“Today won’t love…” his voice little bit spreading by the winds. Xiao Zhi tries to use all the energy he has, struggling to say out the last three words, “Chu…” his blood energy unstopping roll over and over, even using his internal energy, still uncontrollable.
A fresh blood burst out from Xiao Zhi mouth, some burst into Chu Zhu Yu face.
The bloody smells shrouded all the body, on her face, neck, all is his blood!
Then, she only could see that his tall body falling on her. On the time he closed to fall down, he still able to fold over his body, protecting her in his arms.
He felt on the ground, while she is falling on his embraced.
She knows, he still loves her, it never changed before. Even he told many lies but actually he still loves her.
She and his preordained fate (karma), today won’t vanish, in this lifetime, it will still continue.
She saw the blood on him, eyes, ears are slowly bleeding.
She saw him very weak lying on the bed, even she tired but she couldn’t sleep.
She saw the military officer, Liu Shan kneeling in front of her, the seventh feet man, dropping tears from his eyes told her all the matter.
She saw the Zen Master Hui Wu examine her pulse, his expression different, rare expression that showing a hint of surprised.
“Do you really want to save Jue Qing?” The Zen Master Hui Wu spoke softly to her ear.
“No matter what you tell me to do, I willing to do.” She gave her determination as answer.
“But saving him, you and the child should sacrifice at high cost.”
“You are pregnant for months, think about it because that time Jue Qing was trying to antidote the poison, and it makes you becoming pregnant. It because you are bearing his child, having his bloodline, so you are the only person who can help him.” The Zen Master Hui Wu said. All because of the Karma law, perhaps Jue Qing, in this life he never should have it.
Chu Zhu Yu raised her hands and touching her lower abdomen. She…is bearing Jue Qing child?!
The Zen Master Hui Wu continue said : “Initially, this poison only can be suck once. But you are having his child, so you will able to use the Xue Gu (blood insect), getting the poison to cross through your body. And this poison. Able to be divided two, half will be on you and the other half will bear by the child.”
“Couldn’t it all let me bear?” she panicking asked.
He shook his head, “If you are the person who bear all the poison, it means you send your life to death! But because of being divided into two, on the future you need to consume lots of herbal medicine, the body become weak, and easily to get sick. While the child, the fetus has carried the poison on it, afraid that it will affect the growth, will be slower than the normal babies, because of this, will you still willingly to do?”
Chu Zhu Yu biting her lower lips, while her hand touching her lower abdomen. In here, it is small life, still will be born, but it’s life will be harder compare to others, “Alright, I am willing. And this child… Jue Qing and I will work hard and give all the best we can, perhaps he (she) will be bearing the poison since He (she) is a fetus but we will make this child thousand times happier compare to the normal people!”
Her determination words, no doubt on it. The Zen Master Hui Wu staring at Chu Zhu Yu, sigh with emotions. It seems his discipline didn’t make a wrong choice, even this woman looks so weak, but she has very strong heart, something that he never thought before, “so that, I should tell you how to save Jue Qing life.”
“I had known all the matters.” Said Chu Zhu Yu who is sitting on the bed, looking at Xiao Zhi who is not able to sleep and still open his eyes widely.
He gloomy glared at her. Very long, then he gives deep sigh, “Liu Military officer had told you?”
“That because I was willing to.” He doesn’t want to say anything, avoiding taking a look at her.
“You are willingly to antidote the poison, but you never thought whether I am willing or not, letting you to antidote it!” Chu Zhu Yu pairs of hands touching Xiao Zhi face, forcing him to look at her, “I tell you, there is no little bit I am willing, not a little bit I am happy on it!”
“Do you blame me because I possess your body?” He suddenly asking.
Aiya! Who is blaming about it! Chu Zhu Yu pissed off until she even gritting her teeth, “you think that after you die, my heart will at ease and living happily?”
“Don’t you think…” his eyes showed his surprised expression.
“Are you scared?” she stroking nose, ruthless said, “You the surname of Xiao, don’t you know that the detestable thing that you did to me? You were antidote the poison on me, still desperately hiding it from me, not letting me to know what is going on!”
“What I, I! It was you the person who said that wouldn’t leave me, but at the end you are the one who desperately wanting to cut off all the ties with me!”
“I am only…”
“Are you hoping me to be window, still hoping me to taking care of our child and married to another man?” she pissed off glaring at him.
“Child?” he dumbfound alike the wood.
“It true, the Zen Master Hui Wu had examined my pulse, he said that I am pregnant.” But how long actually she has been unconscious, she didn’t even know.
His face expression keep on dumbfounded until suddenly he burst with ecstasy, then changed kind of angry, “ Damn doctor, he keeps on giving you medicine to recuperate your body but he didn’t even know and diagnosed that you are pregnant!”
“My pregnancy time is short, or perhaps because of your Shi Fu who has high medication skill, so he could diagnosed it.” Her fingers stroking his under eyes that dark circle, “How many days you haven’t sleep?”
“Don’t remember.” His forehead frowns weakly.
She take off her shoes, crawling to the bed, letting herself being hugged by him, “Alright, now you should obediently sleeping!”
On his embrace the tender soft body, how long he haven’t touch it? Xiao Zhi stupefied looking at the person who leans at his body, he uses all his life only to protect this person.
Can’t help but he still hugged on her to his bosom, his habit to put his head to her chest, smell her scent.
The clear, thin scent that not too strong, the scent that always makes him feeling at ease.
“Zhu Yu…even without me, you still able to live on…” he closed his eyes, murmured and felt asleep.
How could it be! Chu Zhu Yu rolled up her eyes, looking closely Xiao Zhi who has felt asleep.
His sleeping expression is different from when he is awake, instead it is much elegant charm. Her hand gently stroking his eyes, his nose, his lips corner… in the future their child, will have bigger possibility to look alike him, or will have bigger possibility look alike her?
Child… Chu Zhu Yu hand touching her lower abdomen. She has thousands of sorry for this child. In the future, she will use hundreds of thousands to compensate this child.
But now, she needs to do one of the most important thing, only to do this thing, will be able…
Chu Zhu Yu is slowly gently to remove Xiao Zhi hand from her body, takes out the box and daggers from her body, inside the box there is Xue Gu (blood insect) which giving by the Zen Master.
Deeply in hale the air, she uses the dagger to cut her palm, letting the Xue Gu inside her palm. The insect sucked her bloods, slowly get through onto her skin.
It is slightest tingling sensation spreading from her palm to all over her body, the pain was far from what she has imagine.
The dagger on her hands slowly moves to his left palm, she quickly cut one’s more.
Xiao Zhi half awake, the palm is covered with fresh blood, “ Zhu Yu, what are you…”
Without waiting him to finish his words, she has stuck out her palm to his palm. Two person palms are sticking and instantly there is kind of attraction which stick their palm firmly and sucking each other together.
“What are you doing?” Xiao Zhi frowned, the adsorption force of the palm and the tingling sensation, suddenly makes him understand what kind of thing it is, “ Is it Xue Gu?”
“You guessed right, The Zen Master is the one who gave me this Xue Gu, using it to save your life.” Her five fingers stick to his five fingers, intersect holding.
His face expression changed to be very intolerable, “don’t you know that what you are doing will kill you?”
He doesn’t want she killed! It wasn’t easy for him to save her life, he absolutely doesn’t want to see her die! Xiao Zhi wants to conquer the force which stick their palm with his internal energy, once he refused, the poison has been go through to Chu Zhu Yu body.
“it won’t be! Only in this way, both of us will keep on living!” she used all her energy to hold his fingers, to allow the poison on his body, slowly by slowly flowing to hers, “You can live, the child and I also can live. If I don’t bear your child, I might not able to save your life. It just alike what have been destined, I have your child so that I can save you! Even there is no way to really antidote this poison, even for the entire of my life and the child will carry on this poison, will be weaker than the normal people. But… I still want to save you, no matter what the cost would be, I will save you!”
“Do you know what kind of decision you have made?” the palm filled with humid and sticky sensation but warm the heart too, as if he being reminded that —- she is his misfortune, but she also the person who save him.
“I know.” she gives slightly smile, “even experienced thousands of misfortune, waiting till the chance of the cause to encounter and bearing what is deserve of self.”
One glance of eyesight, one smiling gesture, at the moment everything become clear. He stared into her, slowly move that handshake hand to his lips, gently kissed, “able to love you, even I will encounter the misfortune and others obstacle in live, I gladly to enjoy and endure the hardship for the lifetime…”