I could not believe on my self, I have went through almost a month in my new working place. Days are surely passing so fast, with those stress, depress and crazy hectic days, I still there and struggling and working.
weeks ago, I still complained and whining about this crazy work. I was super stress and even lost my appetite, I don’t even able to cover up my gloomy mood so some of fellow co-workers noticed my stress mood in office while at home my parent seems to see Red Signal of me.
I have very serious talked with my friend. She told me, perhaps I have soft to mild depression. She gave me so much advices and I trying to consider what she told me. The best advice is changed the mind set but how to do it? it was my first question when she mentioned about mind set. This kind of thing isn’t something you say it then changed quickly, it needs time and process to accept and to do.
The easiest way to free my self from this stressing job and environment is resign and then seeking new place but does it really best solution for my problems? For me, this alike running away or hiding from the problem as how many from us who able to get perfect job that fit with ourselves, no stress, no pressure, nice coworkers, nice bosses, etc. even if we are the business owner, is there guarantee we won’t work without stress or worries?
My sister told me to re-consider about resign since I still on job training. Her inputs gave me many thoughts such as even this job isn’t something “ends meet” for paying bills or put food on table (as Julie said), but my sis still advice me to hang on. why?
My sis said today is not easy to get job with “proper” payment moreover there are still lots of people outside there are facing more pressure than I had or they even need to struggle as if their live at the edge. One of the biggest super market in my town went bankrupt and laid off hundreds of employees, others big company doing the downsizing in order to maintain the business stability. On the surface, her words mean about financial crisis but actually she tried to tell me, human is unique because no matter how hardship we face, there will always solution for it, time is the key. God never give more than his creature able to handle, if HE did, HE will have showed the way so we able to keep moving on.
My department is the worst one compare to others department in company where I work right now. the turned over is the highest, too many people in and out within a year. Two days ago, other fellow co-worker was in process of resign. She have worked one year and several months, almost two years. I asked her why she leaving? she said, she tired enough for these hectic days. And then, I asked her she has been there for sometimes how could she not able to stay longer, since she should get use with those stuffs. She said, her limit has came to the end and time has arrived for her to leave or perhaps she might go insane. I wonder, under this kind of condition, how suppose I encourage myself everything will be fine for me?
While another co-worker who has worked for more than three years told me, things would get better as time passes, just see him as example. he able to work years in such environment. So, it really help me to re-think and re-consider everything regarding my new job.
One important lesson I got from both of them, everyone has unique way to deal with stress, pressure and work-load. One gave up not because she is loser but she has struggled and yet she had met her limit while the other one still hang on there not because he is better than the other but he still struggling and able to manage or deal with the condition.
This post isn’t simply about my chit chat or whining or complaining about my new job but more to share my personal experienced and thought. I do feel during the process, I grow little bit as adult 😛
Let me know what you guys think about this post. does any of you are struggling with your job? or how you view your job and it influence toward your life?